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Clare Crawley Reveals Why Her Mom Was Not Present During Her Wedding to Ryan Dawkins

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Clare Crawleyis getting candid about why her mother was not present at herFeb. 1 weddingtoRyan Dawkins.

During an appearanceon the latest episodeofiHeartRadio’sMost Dramatic Podcast Ever With Chris Harrison,The Bachelorettealum, 42, explained that her mother was absent from the big day because she is in “the late stages of dementia” and ended up “getting really sick.”

The television personality got emotional while explaining that the pair initially planned for a summer wedding in Mexico before her mom began to get sick.

“I always wanted to get married on June 21. It’s [the] summer solstice. I was like, ‘What if she doesn’t make it to June 21?’ " she explained. “She ended up getting really sick [at the] end of January. And so I said, ‘Let’s have a mini little wedding because she won’t be able to make it to Mexico anyway. A little mini wedding just for her. A special little one for us, for her.’ We were almost going to stage this tiny little wedding for her to be there.”

“Not even my sisters were coming. We wanted to make it tiny. Everybody [else] was going to come to the big wedding,” she later continued. “But my mom ended up the day before getting really, really sick. She wasn’t able to make it. She’s okay still, but she was just really sick at the time and couldn’t leave the nursing home.”

Regardless of the circumstances — including having had herwedding dress stolen from her caronly a few days prior to the ceremony —Crawley shared with PEOPLEthat “she wouldn’t change a thing” from her wedding day.

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“If I had to do this day over every single day for the rest of my life… I wouldn’t change a thing!” she shared. “Happiest day of my life hands down!”

source: people.com